Before having a baby, there were things I always said I would or not do. I always said I would not breastfeed after my baby got teeth. Although that is still true; (I have an almost 8 month old with no teeth) Jake, himself feels its time to wean. Weaning is way harder than I thought it would be. You just quit doing it right? I have been unprepared for the emotional attachment.
We have been very blessed with learning to breastfeed easily and have not had any issues thus far. (We had some incredibly helpful lactation nurses at the hospital.) It is, by far, way easier for us than warming a bottle and mixing formula or even pumping. Now that I am pretty much pumping all milk he drinks, I feel like all I do is pump to just barely get enough milk for his next meal. If my supply keeps going down then we will have to start some formula. Not the worst thing in the world, but it does make me feel sort of like failing when I know I haven’t.
We have been pumping for Jakes lunch and snacks for sometime now because I guess thats what you are expected to do. Back when he was about 3 months old I felt so guilty because I had the child that would just not take a bottle. He never did. We went straight to a sippy cup. I felt like a failure then because “how are you ever going to do anything on your own”. Actually now I don’t feel so bad because as fun as my old life used to be, I now love my baby so much, I like to bring him along on our adventures and do things as a family. Anyway, this week, Jake has decided his morning breastfeeding session isn’t for him anymore. He’s awake and ready to do fun stuff and breastfeeding is just not as fun. He’s been way to distracted to drink in the morning. So he now only breastfeeds before going to bed at night. I did not think I would miss it or be sad when these feeding sessions went away but I am. I suspect this very last BB (bedtime boobies) is going to be the hardest to say goodbye to.
I decided being the artsy person I am, that I would like some “beautiful artsy” breastfeeding photos to remember our bonding time by. Well that was a major failure. Jake was more interested in eating sticks or looking at the camera than eating a snack. Oh well.
^As artsy and “capturing the moment” as we were going to get.^
^This is the realistic picture. When he was pretty young he started grabbing my nose and holding it when he ate. It was pretty funny.^
I am not saying that everyone should breastfeed and you are weird if you don’t enjoy it. I am really trying to not compare and judge other moms. I just wanted to share my experiences and feelings. Every mom does what is right for their children weather they bottle or breastfeed, cloth or disposable diapers and so on for almost everything you can think of. Why is it so hard not to compare your children to others then? Most every mom is doing the best they can and have the same worries. I think moms need more people around them to just tell them they are doing a good job. That would just go a long way to help.
Here are the cute pictures we took instead of the artsy breastfeeding pictures. I love them!
I hope you all enjoyed reading about my experiences! Until next week, XOXO.